“Bella, where are you going?” Edward asked as I stood and hurried towards the door, but he caught me by my upper arm and struggled to turn me around. I fought against him without success.
“You don’t get to run this time, you don’t have to tell me about it, but we are not doing this ‘one step forward, two steps back dance’ any longer. You are going to stay here with me and cry or yell, whatever you need, but you are not leaving me. We are going to get through this together, we are going to get passed this, and you are going to let me love you,” Edward said staring into my eyes.
His words were moving, powerful, and so strong. I fell weakly into his arms and let him hold me, I cried on his shoulder harder than I had cried in years. I let him hold me so tight I could barely breath to keep the fear and pain at bay, and I let him love me. He was my Edward and I was his Bella, I would no longer be walking alone. Edward was there with me and it seemed he wasn’t going anywhere.
There is a little teaser of a few things to happen in the chapter, but what is to come will shock you, everything with Aro is going to come to shocking head and we will be one step closer to finding the freedom to love for our couple.
Thanks for reading and waiting patiently
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Epilogue of SI, Visuals
The end of Sensual Inamorata is here :(
Here are some visuals from the chapter, to help you visualize things a bit more and hopefully find closure to the story.
Here are some visuals from the chapter, to help you visualize things a bit more and hopefully find closure to the story.
The family on the beach
Ryan
Ross
Bella Happy
Nessie
Jackson
The twins Katie and Carlie
Monday, October 4, 2010
Where the Hell I have been & Teasers :)
I am sure you all have been wondering why I am taking forever to update now and I am sorry about that, but I promise I am working on it.
I have two stories that I am working on the epi's for (Summoned & Sensual Inamorata) and I want to get them finished asap. Then I will only have three stories left The Sports Agent, Faded Memories, and My World. I have decided to update all of them and try to finish Sum. and SI, then my priorities will be in this order Sports Agent, Faded Memories, and then My World. (most of you probably don't even remember My World since it has been forever since I have updated. I am sorry for that.)
Sometimes writers lose motivation and I would guess that is why they don't publish stories chapters at a time, lol.
I do, however, promise to finish them all.
So, please continue to be patient with me and if you need something amazing to read while you are waiting check out my recommendations tab.
My ultimate goal for this week is to update all of them, but I don't know if that is possible. I am going to try though.
Lauralu
I couldn’t control the laughter that rolled from my lips as I imagined Edward pulling on his sexy hair and pacing the floor.
“This isn’t funny, Bella,” he whined and I laughed harder.
“I am sorry, but if he already signed you up it wouldn’t look right for you to drop out now. Plus, you aren’t going to be alone, Emmett is doing it.”
“That is Emmett, we are two completely different people.”
“That you are, but I am afraid to save face you are going to have to do this.” I pretended to be sad about it.
The truth of the matter was that I had given Collin the okay to sign both Emmett and Edward up. It was for a good cause.
“Fine.”
“You sound cute when you are pouty,” I purred as I headed out of Forks.
“Cute? Really? What am I a kitten?”
To my pleasure Edward and I chatted happily almost my whole trip to Seattle and every time he asked what I was doing I dodged his question wanting to surprise him and everyone else when I arrived
Bella let out a relieved breath and quickly made her way away from Jasper and to the bathroom. She took deep breaths trying to fight off the anxiety that had hit her at the thought of what she needed to tell Edward. She wasn’t even ready to face it herself and Jasper wanted her to face Edward and make him face the harsh facts of life; it was too hard and it wasn’t the right time.
“Bella,” Rosalie’s voice carried into the bathroom. Bella took a deep breath and fixed a smile on her face before opening the door.
“Hey,” she said to her sister-in-law as Alice peeked her head around Rosalie.
“Hey, you alright?” Rose asked arching a eyebrow at her.
“Perfect,” Bella lied.
Rosalie eyed her suspiciously and Alice gave her a knowing look, Bella pushed past them and headed down to the beach. She hated hiding things from her family, but she just couldn’t ruin such an amazing vacation.
“Hey soul,” Edward called out as he wrapped Bella up in his strong arms.
Edward took off full speed the family following close on his heels, they caught the scent of other vampires as they made it to the clearing, they had Bella nearly surrounded. Five vampires stood before her, circling her. She had no fear until she saw her family enter the clearing, she was suddenly afraid for them.
“Get back, I’ve got this,” Bella told her family and they all ignored her.
“No way you’re getting to have all the fun,” Emmett said crouching with a smile on his face. He was itching for a fight, they had been practicing for a while.
Why didn’t I see this coming? Alice thought to herself as Jasper shielded her from the vampires in the dark robes.
“This can be a peaceful transaction,” Jane, the short blonde haired vampire said smiling.
“What transaction is that?” Jasper asked between clinched teeth. He could feel the hostility rolling off of the Volturi guard members, he knew they were itching for a fight more so than Emmett.
“I am guessing your silence can only mean one thing. I am going to suggest you two head home, that way Bella can get checked out. Also traveling in the first trimester is risky add that along with all the bacteria women can catch over there and we could have some problems. Your mother and I will book you a flight, oh and Edward?”
“Yeah.” I mumbled suddenly fearing for Bella’s safety.
“Congratulations.” I swallowed hard as I heard the smile in my father’s voice, was he actually happy about this? Of course he was, he would support us in anything, I just had to hope that Officer Swan didn’t shot me when I told him.
“Goodbye my love.” He whispered as he turned and disappeared into the trees. Bella stood shocked it took a moment for what she had done to sink in.
“No Edward! I didn’t mean it come back! Please I can’t live without you!”
I have two stories that I am working on the epi's for (Summoned & Sensual Inamorata) and I want to get them finished asap. Then I will only have three stories left The Sports Agent, Faded Memories, and My World. I have decided to update all of them and try to finish Sum. and SI, then my priorities will be in this order Sports Agent, Faded Memories, and then My World. (most of you probably don't even remember My World since it has been forever since I have updated. I am sorry for that.)
Sometimes writers lose motivation and I would guess that is why they don't publish stories chapters at a time, lol.
I do, however, promise to finish them all.
So, please continue to be patient with me and if you need something amazing to read while you are waiting check out my recommendations tab.
My ultimate goal for this week is to update all of them, but I don't know if that is possible. I am going to try though.
Lauralu
Teasers!
The Sports Agent
I couldn’t control the laughter that rolled from my lips as I imagined Edward pulling on his sexy hair and pacing the floor.
“This isn’t funny, Bella,” he whined and I laughed harder.
“I am sorry, but if he already signed you up it wouldn’t look right for you to drop out now. Plus, you aren’t going to be alone, Emmett is doing it.”
“That is Emmett, we are two completely different people.”
“That you are, but I am afraid to save face you are going to have to do this.” I pretended to be sad about it.
The truth of the matter was that I had given Collin the okay to sign both Emmett and Edward up. It was for a good cause.
“Fine.”
“You sound cute when you are pouty,” I purred as I headed out of Forks.
“Cute? Really? What am I a kitten?”
To my pleasure Edward and I chatted happily almost my whole trip to Seattle and every time he asked what I was doing I dodged his question wanting to surprise him and everyone else when I arrived
Sensual Inamorata
“I’m hungry lets get down to the beach and get that grill started,” Emmett said stopping the conversations in the room.
“Bella,” Rosalie’s voice carried into the bathroom. Bella took a deep breath and fixed a smile on her face before opening the door.
“Hey,” she said to her sister-in-law as Alice peeked her head around Rosalie.
“Hey, you alright?” Rose asked arching a eyebrow at her.
“Perfect,” Bella lied.
Rosalie eyed her suspiciously and Alice gave her a knowing look, Bella pushed past them and headed down to the beach. She hated hiding things from her family, but she just couldn’t ruin such an amazing vacation.
“Hey soul,” Edward called out as he wrapped Bella up in his strong arms.
Summoned
“Bella,” she had said in a terrified voice.
“Get back, I’ve got this,” Bella told her family and they all ignored her.
“No way you’re getting to have all the fun,” Emmett said crouching with a smile on his face. He was itching for a fight, they had been practicing for a while.
Why didn’t I see this coming? Alice thought to herself as Jasper shielded her from the vampires in the dark robes.
“This can be a peaceful transaction,” Jane, the short blonde haired vampire said smiling.
“What transaction is that?” Jasper asked between clinched teeth. He could feel the hostility rolling off of the Volturi guard members, he knew they were itching for a fight more so than Emmett.
My World is Forever Yours
My heart raced in my chest as I watched all our plans, all of Bella’s dreams flash before my eyes. This wasn’t in the plans, not for a long time. I had ruined Bella’s life, she was having a baby before she was ready and it was all my fault. I didn’t know what to do, what to say, but my father’s voice was carrying through the phone.
“I am guessing your silence can only mean one thing. I am going to suggest you two head home, that way Bella can get checked out. Also traveling in the first trimester is risky add that along with all the bacteria women can catch over there and we could have some problems. Your mother and I will book you a flight, oh and Edward?”
“Yeah.” I mumbled suddenly fearing for Bella’s safety.
“Congratulations.” I swallowed hard as I heard the smile in my father’s voice, was he actually happy about this? Of course he was, he would support us in anything, I just had to hope that Officer Swan didn’t shot me when I told him.
Faded Memories
“You’re human you will survive, you forget easily and you love loosely.” His words were like a slap in the face to her and her sadness turned to anger.
“What kind of bull honkie is that? You can’t possible say that I will forget you or that I love loosely. I love you with all my heart and soul and if you don’t want me and if you don’t believe in me then you can just leave. Go now.” She was shoving his chest and all though he didn’t want their goodbye to be like this, he found it easier to leave her when she was mad rather than sad. “Goodbye my love.” He whispered as he turned and disappeared into the trees. Bella stood shocked it took a moment for what she had done to sink in.
“No Edward! I didn’t mean it come back! Please I can’t live without you!”
Monday, September 13, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
My Everything
The song Edward wrote Bella in Sensual Inamorata
@Copyright: The lyrics to this song belong to me, I wrote and created them. Please do not copy or use them without my permission.
My Everything
~Edward Cullen in Sensual Inamorata
@Copyright belongs to LauraLuann R.
I close my eyes and see her face
She takes everything’s place.
Her eyes are like sweet chocolate
Her walls built so high and her heart is in pieces.
But every night she fills my dreams and she is everything to me.
I want to hold her tight
I want her darkness to fade to light
Everything with her just feels so right
I’ll love her for life
She is my one and only
My forever soul
When the dark fades to light, everything will be all right
I’ll tare those walls down
And put the pieces of her heart back together
Because she takes everything’s place
I close my eyes and see your face
You take everything’s place
Your eyes are like sweet chocolate
Your walls built so high, your heart is in pieces
But every night you fill my dreams, you are everything to me
I promise to hold you tight and make everything all right
You are everything to me
My heart……..My soul……..My love……..My everything
@Copyright: The lyrics to this song belong to me, I wrote and created them. Please do not copy or use them without my permission.
My Everything
~Edward Cullen in Sensual Inamorata
@Copyright belongs to LauraLuann R.
I close my eyes and see her face
She takes everything’s place.
Her eyes are like sweet chocolate
Her walls built so high and her heart is in pieces.
But every night she fills my dreams and she is everything to me.
I want to hold her tight
I want her darkness to fade to light
Everything with her just feels so right
I’ll love her for life
She is my one and only
My forever soul
When the dark fades to light, everything will be all right
I’ll tare those walls down
And put the pieces of her heart back together
Because she takes everything’s place
I close my eyes and see your face
You take everything’s place
Your eyes are like sweet chocolate
Your walls built so high, your heart is in pieces
But every night you fill my dreams, you are everything to me
I promise to hold you tight and make everything all right
You are everything to me
My heart……..My soul……..My love……..My everything
Monday, May 17, 2010
Monday Teasers
The Sports Agent
“Why do you fight it?” I asked as I pulled her to my chest and held her close, she stood limp in my arms not returning the gesture.
“I’m not fighting anything.” Her voice broke and I knew that she felt all the things that I felt, but I didn’t know how to break down her wall and I was already tired of trying.
“You know what I am talking about Bella, you feel it. I don’t know what it is, but I know that you can feel it also. Why won’t you let your wall down and give us a chance?” I was surprised by the emotion that was in my voice and the pressure in my chest.
“There is no us.” She mumbled as she looked anywhere, but in my eyes.
“There could be if you would just give it a try.” I placed a finger on her chin and made her look at me.
Sensual Inamorata
Her smile was infectious and I was mesmerized by her, she was happy.
“Your happy.” The words left my mouth as we laid side by side on the floor staring into each others eyes.
“You make me happy.” She whispered tracing my lips with her finger. She looked so perfect in the moonlight.
“So things are good?” I questioned hoping that she was alright with all the things that were happening around us.
“Things are great.” She said leaning in and pressing her lips to mine. My body ignited with the electric current that only she could cause in me, just as I was about to deepen the kiss she pulled back and stared into my eyes.
One word slipped through her mouth and all though I could have no idea what that one word meant I knew that it held a lot of weight and had more meaning than anyone could comprehend.
Summoned
Jake what are you doing? I ignored Sam’s thoughts as him the rest of the pack yelled after me. They knew what I was doing, I was going to save Bella and if she was already de.. I couldn’t think the word, but if the outcome was bad, then I would forfeit my life, because a world without her was one I didn’t want to live in.
Jacob there are too many of them and this is against protocol. Sam really wasn’t swaying me or changing my mind any.
Think of your dad. My movements paused for only a moment as Seth mentioned my dad, but I couldn’t just walk away.
I didn’t have to tell them what I was thinking, they knew what was on my mind and as I picked up speed I heard their debate behind me.
Are we really just going to let him commit suicide? Seth asked Sam.
You think we should risk our hides for his stupidity? Paul snorted and I hoped they wouldn’t follow me, their was no point in them losing their lives also. Though we were even numbered with the vampires, Sam’s ten plus me, but I still wanted them to stay behind. It seemed that Carlisle’s entire unit was going to die, I was the only one left. I couldn’t save Carlisle, Edward, Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmett and then I failed Esme and now Bella also. I didn’t deserve to live, I deserved to die alongside the family that I had come to love. Even Edward and his annoying ass. How could I not love someone that Bella loved? I’ll admit that I said and did some horrible things, but at the end of the day I did love Bella with my whole heart.
I was quickly out of hearing distance and had no idea what choice Sam had made, but I hoped it was to go back and tell the council that Unit nineteen-oh-one was officially completely wiped out.
My World Is Forever Yours
“Your period Bella. When was your last period?” I was in panic mood as I held the phone to my ear, my father had just told me that all the signs pointed to Bella being pregnant. I couldn’t think, because I just knew in my heart that she was, she was going to have a baby. We were going to have a baby, I was going to be a dad. It was so hard to comprehend and as I watched Bella freeze and her eyes go wide, I knew it for sure.
My heart raced in my chest as I watched all our plans, all of Bella’s dreams flash before my eyes. This wasn’t in the plans, not for a long time. I had ruined Bella’s life, she was having a baby before she was ready and it was all my fault. I didn’t know what to do, what to say, but my father’s voice was carrying through the phone.
“I am guessing your silence can only mean one thing. I am going to suggest you two head home, that way Bella can get checked out. Also traveling in the first trimester is risky add that along with all the bacteria women can catch over there and we could have some problems. Your mother and I will book you a flight, oh and Edward?”
“Yeah.” I mumbled suddenly fearing for Bella’s safety.
“Congratulations.” I swallowed hard as I heard the smile in my father’s voice, was he actually happy about this? Of course he was, he would support us in anything, I just had to hope that Officer Swan didn’t shot me when I told him.
Faded Memories
“Bella we are leaving and in the fall you should leave to attend Sarah Lawrence.” Edward’s words ripped at Bella as she watched him stand before her as cold as stone.
“No.” Her head moved back and forth and her voice shook.
“It is what is best for everyone.” He sounded as if he had rehearsed the words and in truth he had. He knew exactly what he wanted to say and he knew it wouldn’t be easy.
“It isn’t best for me, I love you.” Edward flinched at the words and Bella noticed, she jumped in while she had him responding. “I don’t want to be without you, Sarah Lawrence, my mother, none of it matters without you.” She reached for his arm and pleaded with him.
“Bella please don’t make this harder than it is. Alice has seen it, you will go to Sarah Lawrence and live a happy whole life. I will not allow you to stay with me and become a monster like me.” He held the side of her face and she clung to his wrist praying it wouldn’t be the last time she felt his hands on her skin.
“Your not a monster.” He ignored her.
“Just promise me that you will live your life, you will do all the things you want to do and you will be happy. Can you promise me that?” He was begging.
“Yes, but Edward now that I have lived with you I can’t live without you.” Bella stared into Edward’s eyes forcing him to believe her words. He closed his eyes seeing the truth there and it pulled at his non-existent heart, because he knew that it was true for him also.
“Your human you will survive, you forget easily and you love loosely.” His words were like a slap in the face to her and her sadness turned to anger.
“What kind of bull honkie is that? You can’t possible say that I will forget you or that I love loosely. I love you with all my heart and soul and if you don’t want me and if you don’t believe in me then you can just leave. Go now.” She was shoving his chest and all thought he didn’t want their goodbye to be like this, he found it easier to leave her when she was mad rather than sad.
“Goodbye my love.” He whispered as he turned and disappeared into the trees. Bella stood shocked it took a moment for what she had done to sink in.
“No Edward! I didn’t mean it come back! Please I can’t live without you
“Why do you fight it?” I asked as I pulled her to my chest and held her close, she stood limp in my arms not returning the gesture.
“I’m not fighting anything.” Her voice broke and I knew that she felt all the things that I felt, but I didn’t know how to break down her wall and I was already tired of trying.
“You know what I am talking about Bella, you feel it. I don’t know what it is, but I know that you can feel it also. Why won’t you let your wall down and give us a chance?” I was surprised by the emotion that was in my voice and the pressure in my chest.
“There is no us.” She mumbled as she looked anywhere, but in my eyes.
“There could be if you would just give it a try.” I placed a finger on her chin and made her look at me.
Sensual Inamorata
Her smile was infectious and I was mesmerized by her, she was happy.
“Your happy.” The words left my mouth as we laid side by side on the floor staring into each others eyes.
“You make me happy.” She whispered tracing my lips with her finger. She looked so perfect in the moonlight.
“So things are good?” I questioned hoping that she was alright with all the things that were happening around us.
“Things are great.” She said leaning in and pressing her lips to mine. My body ignited with the electric current that only she could cause in me, just as I was about to deepen the kiss she pulled back and stared into my eyes.
One word slipped through her mouth and all though I could have no idea what that one word meant I knew that it held a lot of weight and had more meaning than anyone could comprehend.
Summoned
Jake what are you doing? I ignored Sam’s thoughts as him the rest of the pack yelled after me. They knew what I was doing, I was going to save Bella and if she was already de.. I couldn’t think the word, but if the outcome was bad, then I would forfeit my life, because a world without her was one I didn’t want to live in.
Jacob there are too many of them and this is against protocol. Sam really wasn’t swaying me or changing my mind any.
Think of your dad. My movements paused for only a moment as Seth mentioned my dad, but I couldn’t just walk away.
I didn’t have to tell them what I was thinking, they knew what was on my mind and as I picked up speed I heard their debate behind me.
Are we really just going to let him commit suicide? Seth asked Sam.
You think we should risk our hides for his stupidity? Paul snorted and I hoped they wouldn’t follow me, their was no point in them losing their lives also. Though we were even numbered with the vampires, Sam’s ten plus me, but I still wanted them to stay behind. It seemed that Carlisle’s entire unit was going to die, I was the only one left. I couldn’t save Carlisle, Edward, Rosalie, Jasper, and Emmett and then I failed Esme and now Bella also. I didn’t deserve to live, I deserved to die alongside the family that I had come to love. Even Edward and his annoying ass. How could I not love someone that Bella loved? I’ll admit that I said and did some horrible things, but at the end of the day I did love Bella with my whole heart.
I was quickly out of hearing distance and had no idea what choice Sam had made, but I hoped it was to go back and tell the council that Unit nineteen-oh-one was officially completely wiped out.
My World Is Forever Yours
“Your period Bella. When was your last period?” I was in panic mood as I held the phone to my ear, my father had just told me that all the signs pointed to Bella being pregnant. I couldn’t think, because I just knew in my heart that she was, she was going to have a baby. We were going to have a baby, I was going to be a dad. It was so hard to comprehend and as I watched Bella freeze and her eyes go wide, I knew it for sure.
My heart raced in my chest as I watched all our plans, all of Bella’s dreams flash before my eyes. This wasn’t in the plans, not for a long time. I had ruined Bella’s life, she was having a baby before she was ready and it was all my fault. I didn’t know what to do, what to say, but my father’s voice was carrying through the phone.
“I am guessing your silence can only mean one thing. I am going to suggest you two head home, that way Bella can get checked out. Also traveling in the first trimester is risky add that along with all the bacteria women can catch over there and we could have some problems. Your mother and I will book you a flight, oh and Edward?”
“Yeah.” I mumbled suddenly fearing for Bella’s safety.
“Congratulations.” I swallowed hard as I heard the smile in my father’s voice, was he actually happy about this? Of course he was, he would support us in anything, I just had to hope that Officer Swan didn’t shot me when I told him.
Faded Memories
“Bella we are leaving and in the fall you should leave to attend Sarah Lawrence.” Edward’s words ripped at Bella as she watched him stand before her as cold as stone.
“No.” Her head moved back and forth and her voice shook.
“It is what is best for everyone.” He sounded as if he had rehearsed the words and in truth he had. He knew exactly what he wanted to say and he knew it wouldn’t be easy.
“It isn’t best for me, I love you.” Edward flinched at the words and Bella noticed, she jumped in while she had him responding. “I don’t want to be without you, Sarah Lawrence, my mother, none of it matters without you.” She reached for his arm and pleaded with him.
“Bella please don’t make this harder than it is. Alice has seen it, you will go to Sarah Lawrence and live a happy whole life. I will not allow you to stay with me and become a monster like me.” He held the side of her face and she clung to his wrist praying it wouldn’t be the last time she felt his hands on her skin.
“Your not a monster.” He ignored her.
“Just promise me that you will live your life, you will do all the things you want to do and you will be happy. Can you promise me that?” He was begging.
“Yes, but Edward now that I have lived with you I can’t live without you.” Bella stared into Edward’s eyes forcing him to believe her words. He closed his eyes seeing the truth there and it pulled at his non-existent heart, because he knew that it was true for him also.
“Your human you will survive, you forget easily and you love loosely.” His words were like a slap in the face to her and her sadness turned to anger.
“What kind of bull honkie is that? You can’t possible say that I will forget you or that I love loosely. I love you with all my heart and soul and if you don’t want me and if you don’t believe in me then you can just leave. Go now.” She was shoving his chest and all thought he didn’t want their goodbye to be like this, he found it easier to leave her when she was mad rather than sad.
“Goodbye my love.” He whispered as he turned and disappeared into the trees. Bella stood shocked it took a moment for what she had done to sink in.
“No Edward! I didn’t mean it come back! Please I can’t live without you
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